Poetry

Journey to the Hot Tub

One. One Among. One among others. Among others one. Among one others. One among others is. Is one among others? Yes. Party.

One. One remains. One by remains. One remains by. One by the remains. One remains by the dinner. One by the remains of dinner. Eats nachos. Alone.

One. Is one? One is. But one is. But one is not. Stop. One has none. No one has. One has no parts. One has no male parts. Born. Born without. One has some female parts. Some. Some removed. One has some female parts. External. One has some female parts removed. Internal. Not one whole but a whole one.

One. Is one? One is. One is she. Yes. Always.

She. She always. She can. She comes. She can always come. She that always comes can. She laughs that she can always come. To the party. Party to the nachos. She laughs that to the nachos at the party she can always come.

She. She thirsts. She is thirsty. For she is thirsty. She is thirsty for wine. Have wine. Have another wine. An other. An other is he. He has wine. In the fridge he has chilled cheap wine. Chilled cheap wine has come. Chilled cheap wine has come in a bag. Not a bottle. He has come with chilled cheap wine in a bag not a bottle. He says is this white wine I found in the fridge or your catheter bag? He laughs. She laughs. She is not one whole but a whole one. He pours. She drinks. She is not thirsty.

She. She gets. For she gets. She forgets too. She forgets to get. She sees she. She sees she is. But she is not she. She is younger. Remember. Remember younger she thirsts. Younger she is thirsty for wine. Too young. Younger she is too young for wine. She gets lemonade. Younger she smiles. Her smile. She is she but younger she is she. Younger she is just she. She has her. She is not just she. She is I. She and I. She has her and I have. What? Daughter.

I. I move. Unsteadily I move. What I move unsteadily. See what I unsteadily move. This body. Others see what I move unsteadily. What I unsteadily move others see as sway. Others see this body sway. Others see this body sway high. Others see this body in high sway. Others see this body sway in high heels. High heels make no difference. Scars do. This body has scars. I have this body has scars. My. My body has scars. Mine.

I. Do I? I will do. Outside others do. I will do what others do outside. Those others that I know outside. They. He and she and they all wait outside for me. I move I sway my body and chilled cheap wine outside. He and she and they all cheer when I move I sway my body and chilled cheap wine outside to them.

I. I stand. Standing by I. Not to stand by I. Preparing to not stand by I. I am not prepared to stand by. Standing by the side I am not prepared. For the feeling. But I am prepared to not stand by so. I remove my clothes. For the feeling. I remove my clothes for feeling the water. In front of them. For them I am not prepared to stand by and so remove my clothes for feeling the water. The gasp. Theirs at my bareness. Preparedness. The gasp. Mine. From feeling the water on my body. My body has scars. Under white my body has scars. My body has scars under white is under white water. Skin against skin under white warm water. Chilled cheap wine spills into white warm water. My daughter smiles her smile. Her smile says you were wearing your swimming costume all along. The white one!


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